You know that quote; “All I need is a little bit of coffee, and a whole lotta Jesus”?
Well, it’s false. I just need Jesus.
If I’m being honest, which I am, my prayer life is poor. I am the Christian who goes to God when I have a problem.
Corrie ten Boom asked; “is prayer your steering wheel or your spare tire?” Unfortunately I don’t even think prayer is my spare tire. I think it’s an old flat tire I have out in the shed somewhere covered in dust.
Then I realized that the only reason that my prayer life is bad is because I let it get this way. It isn’t like I sit down to pray and God says “hold on Selina, John Smith in Timbuktu’s issue is more important than yours, come back later.”
He’s not doing that. In fact He’s the one waiting patiently for me to come to Him and I’m the one saying “hold on God, I’m too tired, I’m too busy, I’ll pray tomorrow, come back later.”
Guess who keeps showing up to talk to me… guess who keeps giving Him excuses…
I’m fixing that though. I’m 100% determined to become the woman He created me to be. I don’t know who that is yet, but I know it’s better than whatever it is that I’m trying to do.
Everything seems so small once I talk to Him.
I’m going to throw it back to Sunday School by saying this. but He really does have the whole world in His hands.
I can’t say that I have an exact step by step plan on how I’m going to fix my relationship with God, but hey welcome to the whole point of this blog. I’m just one big “I’m not sure but I’m going to try.”
I do know that I’m going to start with prayer, and that’s all I know for now.
I can guarantee you my prayers are not going to be beautiful and poetic, those types of prayers are nice but they don’t speak from my heart. Big and fancy words are also not something I’m going to be throwing in there. I think my prayers are more like a conversation with Him, which is kind of how I like it. Considering I’m determined to let God become my new best friend.
I have hope in this new journey I’m taking.
That’s all I’ve got.
If you’re still reading this babble, Thank you, I love you, and have a lovely night.